I'm sorry I'm such a whiny person sometimes, I really need to stop -_-
Despite my face being pimpled with red dots and the day being a bitter shade gray, I'm actually trying to be productive. Two days ago I had gone to Columbia's School of Engineering and fell in love with it. And here goes the internal dialogue again--"I can get in, I think...who the hell am I kidding? Scores...grades....activities...yes...no...."
Every other second I yearn to leave my dirty little secrets behind. These coping mechanisms aren't suitable for an Ivy League student. When I think of the young people that gave me tours, I usually marvel at how similar we are. Striving for greatness and idealism and saving the world, with wide smiles and never-ending energy. But take the things that hide behind my locked door, and suddenly we are a world apart. Somehow, some way, they can be perfect without having a catch.
nobody is perfect.
ReplyDeleteit is impossible.
no matter how hard we strive to get there.
o.O You're doing engineering? >.< Good luck! XD
ReplyDeleteI love Columbia! I'm applying there :) Helen is right, and it seems the more we try, the farther we get.
ReplyDeletetrust me, they have a catch. there is the most amazing lady at my university. So bright, so loving, so so intelligent, so incredibly bulimic.
ReplyDeleteI know because she told me so. She told me because she knows I admire her. She told me to give me hope.
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everyone has a catch. some are just better at hiding it. go for it. apply. you have nothing to lose, and you might just get in, right?
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I guess you are all right :T But surely not everyone has such debilitating problems, you know?
ReplyDeleteYes I want to go into bioengineering, probably the easiest of all engineering fields but whatever haha it still sounds smart XD